Not much of a life: Two years since I was wrongly sectioned

The four days Paula Harris spent in the psych ward against her will, with only the overwhelming negativity of her own depressed brain for company, ‘breached the legislation’. It also scarred her forever.  It was a Friday when I went into the psych ward. Friday the 13th. Yesterday was Sunday. Yesterday was the second anniversary … Read more

How shit I am: a poet on her first slam

Prolific, award-winning Palmerston North poet Paula Harris somehow manages to be stroppy and properly vulnerable all at once. Here, she writes about her first slam competition – and why she cried all the way home.  I am old enough to have given birth to most of the people here. Sure, there’s a couple of parents … Read more

On being sectioned on Friday the 13th

A personal essay by Paula Harris: “I was admitted, under the Mental Health (Compulsory Assessment and Treatment) Act 1992, to the secure unit of the psychiatric ward just after noon on Friday…” Content warning: This essay contains references to suicidal ideation which may be confronting for some readers. It was Friday the 13th. That isn’t … Read more

Her name was Allie

Writer and poet Paula Harris reflects on a childhood friend’s experience with abuse – and how her own upbringing affected how she viewed that abuse. Content warning: this essay discusses the physical and emotional abuse of children. Her name was Allie. Well, no, actually, it wasn’t. Despite never having changed a name for anyone in … Read more

The Monday Poem: ‘if I were a queen, I would start wars out of sexual frustration’ by Paula Harris

All week this week we present new verse, to celebrate National Poetry Day on Friday. Today’s poet: Paula Harris of Palmerston North.   if I were a queen, I would start wars out of sexual frustration   I wouldn’t be a virgin queen – obviously – but I would be known to become incredibly tetchy … Read more

On Tuesdays I go to the pharmacy

A personal memoir of mental health, by Paula Harris. Content warning: this essay discusses severe mental health issues, including suicidal ideation. On Tuesdays I go to the pharmacy. That’s the day when I pick up that week’s worth of antidepressants. Someone somewhere thought it’d be fine to manufacture an antidepressant that people can overdose on. … Read more